You hurt her again

I have worked on healing my inner child and have been deliberately living the years that were taken away from me. When you told my mom that I lied about your wife mistreating me throughout my childhood, you hurt the child version of me all over again. It hurts a lot more now because I am much more self aware now and cannot ignore the pain from the bandaid you just wripped off. Maybe my healing was masked all along in the name of respecting you. I should be grateful that you verbalize your dislike for me this time so that I do not have to guess how you feel about me. Nor will I seek your love and affection in order to fill the void that was created by your actions. God will heal me and the little girl me. My trust in men will be restored again and I will marry and love from a place that's healthy and secure. I release you to God father. I release you. And I forgive you. Please keep your distance.

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Community member - 1 month ago

There is something heartbreaking about having to become an adult who goes back and comforts the child you once were. And perhaps the hardest part is realizing that some of the things you thought you had healed from were only buried beneath survival, respect, silence, and the hope that one day things would be different. Your story carries pain but also strength. Choosing to release someone to God does not mean what happened didn't matter. Forgiving does not mean giving them access to you again. And asking for distance does not make you bitter; it can be an act of love toward yourself. I hope the little girl in you finally gets to experience the safety, tenderness and love she deserved all along. May you never again have to earn love by tolerating what hurts you. And may God restore what was taken from you, not by pretending it never happened, but by teaching you that your future does not have to be governed by your past.

Community member - 1 month ago

You spoke to the little girl in me. Tears are flowing... We(me and my younger self) will be ok. Thank you.

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