To dad

Man… reading this, you can really feel how much you’ve carried for a long time. Wanting your dad to just be there for you, to talk, to guide you, to show you love, that’s such a real and human thing. There’s nothing wrong with you for feeling that way. That kind of distance, especially when someone is physically there but emotionally far away, cuts deep. What really stands out though is how your perspective has changed. Not everyone gets to a place where they can look past the hurt and start wondering what the other person went through. That doesn’t erase what you missed out on, but it shows a lot of heart. At the same time, don’t lose sight of your own pain. You were a son who needed his father, and that need mattered. It still matters. And the fact that you can put this into words like this… it shows you’re not closed off, you’re not hardened in the same way. You’re still open, still feeling, still trying to understand. You might not get all the answers from him, and that’s the hard part. But you do get to decide what kind of man you become from here. And honestly, the way you’re thinking and reflecting, it already says you’re heading in a different direction. You deserved more. And it’s okay to say that, while still trying to understand him too.